That's me getting my degree with the red on top my hat.
That's my momma ya'll!!!!
That's me getting hooded in the middle of the stage I'll have a substantial post later...after I finish partying from graduation...been partying for the past 2 weeks...I'll be done after the first week of June!!!! Thanks Diva for the Graduation Shouts!!!! I finally got a Masters Ya'll!!!!!
This is from my graduation party I had the night before!
Last week I just seemed to be in a fog and just lost. It could have been attributed to the fact that I was anxiously awating graduation on May 19th [went well haved to post later about that], could have been that I was partying too much because of graduation, or it just could have been the fact that my GPS Navigation System BROKE!!!
I'm definitely depending on the latter as the explanation. I work for the State where I have to drive around and save the children...I cover two counties. Although I grew up in parts of both of those counties, I don't know the entire counties by heart. Well, I was at work, driving mind you and then it happened. I started smelling the sweet smells of garlic. Okay, I know what you're thinking, who thinks garlic is sweet smelling. I love food!!! I mean I really love food!!! So I'm sitting there thinking, where is the Portugese restuarant cause all I could think of was rotisseri chicken with red beans and rice... I continue to drive thinking, this is not the part of town where the Ethnic foods are...why the hell am I smelling garlic. Then I started thinking, did I leave something in the car.
I started pulling out all of the airfresheners I could think of in the car. Finally, I looked down to see where to turn next on my hand Mio GPS when I realized it was smoking. That's right, the bitch was smoking. I pulled over immediately, unplugged it then started blowing into it. I turned it off thinking...okay...if I turn it off it will reset and be fine. I turned it off but it never turned back on...I was so sad...But what was worst was that I was lost in the middle of the hood and I kept circling the block in the state car so it looked like I was setting the crack operation up for the shake down by the feds. Finally, I just pulled over, sucked it up and called the office to get turn by turn directions to the place I needed to go. All I could say, was why the hell did I turn it off? And who thought of turn it off, it'll reset and turn back on. I do that shit with everything, tv acting up turn it off and on again. PC acting up, turn it off and on again. What the hell made me think a smoking GPS would even turn back on?
After that I refused to leave the office until today. Today was the first day I was back in the field driving around, but that was because I used the money that 31 gave me for graduation!!!! That's right ya'll 31 gave me about $300 for my graduation present...which was really cool cause he's so nice. He also played really nice with the family at graduation, he sat next to them and was really helpful for me!!! So I'm happy to say that I'm finally done with this fog and I know where I'm going!!!!!!
That's right, 31 said that to me. When 31 had his birthday cook out at his mother's house, three of his cousins came, three woman. I know some of his other cousins but not these three woman. I know his other cousins because I throw parties. They come to my parties and so does 31 so I met them.
Well, as I'm frying chicken in his momma's house, his three mean cousins come in. They hug each other and immediately begin to talk about the other cousins. The actual cousins who were nice to me. They were all like who are you but luckily 31 came in and introduced me. By the way he is still introducing me as his 'friend'. They looked me up and down and continued talking. I didn't involve myself in any of their conversations. A couple of times they asked if I needed anything which I made sure I talked back but other than that I was good. I was polite and said hello and goodbye but I have family members like that myself so I already knew.
That night after we dropped off his Goddaughter we were in the bed talking. He said oh the meanies like you. I thought oh really? He said yeah, they thought you were so polite and nice. The next day I went back over there and they actually held real conversations with me and didn't just talk about me. But things changed later that night when they checked myspace because the cousin they were talking about had already put up the pictures from the party already. That's when they saw the parties I saw and started to call me by nickname and not Cherry's Kid. Tension just felt tight and I was like okay never mind. I thought they were getting cool but it was like, no no no. Oh by the way, they tell me, we like you. 31 has brought girls back that have been like what? But you you're nice and we like. Trust us if we didn't then we would tell you.
Later that night, 31 I were talking and he said. Don't get caught up in their shit. Don't tell anyone the secrets they tell you cause that's what they want. At the end of the day just cause they sit up in the kitchen and talk about people doesn't mean that they won't still fight you cause you opened your mother. I love my cousins but don't get caught up in their shit. I'm not even worried about the statement. I'm more concerned about the meaning behind the statement. What do you mean don't get caught up in their shit. Am I going to see them more often to where I could? Am I going to be around longer? Wow...shocked the hell out me...well, I'm working on my graduation present...hopefully he will have something nice for me!!!!
"This friends shit is killing me!" "What do you mean?" "We're not friends cause clearly I'm doing things with you that I only do with someone who is my man." "I think we're more than friends, I don't think I'm ready for a relationship." "But if I was fucking someone else you would be mad." "I can't say anything." "But you weren't mad when you thought I fucked Shatim?" "LOL"
Okay...let me start from the beginning....
Saturday was 30 is now 31 Birthday Party. He had a cook out at his mother's house. He asked me to come there early. I get there early and ain't shit done. The dishes aren't washed, the kitchen floor isn't swept, the chicken isn't fried...it's like what the hell. So his mother asks me to help 30 is now 31 or should I say 31, his sisters, and her with the dishes while they continue to finish fixing the food and the backyard. Once I finished the dishes, I swept the floor, then his sister said she didn't know how to fry chicken so I started on that as well. It was crazy. In the middle of me frying chicken all his family started showing up.
He's introducing me as his friend but he's coming in checking on me, hugging me, kissing me, and all of this while I'm frying chicken in his MOMMA'S HOUSE! I didn't mind actually it was very funny. His one set of cousins were there talking about the other cousins. There was a pinata for the kids and someone got popped in the head with a stick. And at the end of the night people started stealing beers, pieces of cake, and slabs of ribs...yeah I said 2 slabs of ribs were missing at the end of the day.
Then the funniest started...31 definitely agreed for him and I to babysit his goddaughter that night. I was like what the hell!!! His cousins and Jersey friends were trying to holla...super funny. One guy was outside talking to me next thing you know 31's sister and I was talking and he gives me the side eye like come over here. I'm like what? He's really giving me the over here nod. I said no thank you. One of his cousin's was asking the 20 questions. Are you and 31 married? Is that your kid? Is that your man? Oh well can I say hi? NO...NO you can't!!! Luckily 31 saw it all and handled it all by telling all the guys to back off...very funny!!!!
The next day, I returned for the after party dinner. Which was fun as hell. His mean cousins who were talking about every one were back and they actually liked me...very funny...His momma and sisters are great...love them!!!! The grandparents were great...his dad is super funny, he tried to give me a political question to make sure I wasn't stupid...so I pulled out my 95k education on him...And the next day was even better because we were all playing cards.
With all of that said, the above conversation is what we had afterwards because clearly it was time for the talk. Well, clearly the talk didn't go well or at least how I thought it would. Not that I want to be his girlfriend but damn...stop treating me that way if you're not ready...but in reality am I ready? And aren't we already in a relationship because of the way he treats me? I mean seriously, I met the grandparents on both sides. What am I doing with myself? I just got out of an abusive relationship and here I rushing into something else? I don't know...But look at me frying chicken in his momma's house!
I usually wait for more comments before I post something new but please check out this video...but really watch the end...This is Mike Gravel he is running for the Presidential Race under the Liberterian Vote...but please watch him Soldier Boy PLEASE!!!!!
That's how I feel like my life has been right now...It's been so long since I posted, it's ridiculous. It's not like I'm not doing anything. Shit it's like I'm doing so much but doesn't feel like I'm getting anything done. So I've finally gotten a chance to post and I honestly think because I had to take some me time to sit and pamper myself for a couple of seconds that I got the oppoturnity to post. So what's been going on? Everything and nothing at all.
30 is definitely still in the picture. There is no question that he won't be around by the end of summer. Things have been going so well between him and I that I may cut off the other guys that I have been dating. *Side Bar - Why does that happen? Women get wrapped up in a guy that they are dating, yes definitely dating not a boyfriend and then we cut off all the other men that we are dating too but men don't cut any of the other women off.* On other thought, I won't cut anyone off, I'll just keep things going the way they are until I'm ready to commit to him.
Grad School is definitely over! Yes, I handed in my last finals last week and I got one back, got a B+ on the final paper and an A in the class. The other class and the internship, I haven't heard from yet. Still got a financial hold on my record although I paid the balance it just hasn't been updated yet.
Lastly, work is kicking my assets!!! They want to fire my supervisor. His superiors feel that he is incompetent but the problem is that because they want to fire him puts hell on those underneath him. They double check our work for his mistakes, they constantly call us, and it is just taxing on someone's body. I'm just really beat!!! I'm so beat up mentally from this!!!
Other than all of that.....I'm good!!!! A little sleep deprived and hungry but I'm good. I think I need a beer draw like Jamielor a day where I think I'm a Superstar like Jaybeeand Rashan...or maybe a day where I can just tell my supervisor that he is an idoit like Divaimplied...But more importantly I think I need those summers off like Von Kutieboots....I live vicariously thru those items right now until I get a chance to be normal again. Hopefully, after I catch up on work at work, graduate, and maybe get some from 30.... I should be fine....did I mention that it just so happens to be that week...yeah...life is pretty tough now...LOL!!! But I'm hanging in there!!!!!!!!!!
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I am sometimes confused about life in general work, school, play...mostly play!!! My definition of love, is there such a thing? No matter what, life should be colorful!
That's me getting my degree with the red on top my hat.
That's my momma ya'll!!!!
That's me getting hooded in the middle of the stage
This is from my graduation party I had the night before!
