I'm Silent....and so is my phone....
2 days til the cruise...and the list of reasons I had before has become the worst list ever1!!! Diva [my big sister in my head] and Eb [my cool cousin in my head] both told me to leave The Barber alone and I came to the conclusion a couple of weeks ago that they were right... Well I came to the conclusion when I went out of town for a few days. Before I left he was all up some other chicks ass so I igged him [ignored him]! He continued to be pissy...I mean come on dude you're in the same place as me with another chick and you're ignoring me because of what? We're not exclusive...why are you so childish...so I kept it moving...but when I came back it was like baby baby please...Nig-ro please?!?
He is harassing me...The Barber...he won't go away...I have an item of his that I sent off to get fixed and it's not ready yet I've been calling the company to get it back so I can just give it to him so that I don't have to deal with him anymore but he is calling crazy...I mean calling me at 5am...My phone is silent...I am silent...I am saving the texts and the next step is to press charges because I just want to be left alone...I even gave him the company number so he can harass them...
On top of all of that, I got to work yesterday and they gave me a new case...I work on a caseload so you're on a constant rotation, I go on vacation on Wednesday...I got a case yesterday...and what am I supposed to do between Monday and Tuesday and still update all of my cases? Really? I am now Superhuman? LOL!!! My boss is challenged...mentally...
I'm not even packed for Mexico...wow...My hair is fucked up...I'm stressed out and I think I'm about to get my period and I'm going on vacation...this is some bullshit!!!! The only good thing is that all my bills are paid...I will get paid while on vacation...and I've never been on a cruise before...smiles!!! Happy Tuesday and for those in the Northeast it's raining but at least we can see the rain today!!!!
Update...yes 3 minutes later...The Barber is mad that I'm ignoring him and has asked that I never call him again...Thanks!!! I'm so happy ... Goodbye Asshole!!!
Labels: barber, still standing, vacation
I've Lost It
Recently I've been thinking about my ex that I lived with. I thought how I fucked up...how I left a relationship...althought it was skewed I left it for what? Because I don't have peace of mind or happiness outside of it now? It's been a whole year and I contacted him and we spoke and then he blocked my number. I mean we spoke and we talked about us and things sounded okay and then he blocked my number. I thought it was sad and funny at the same time.
Yesterday I heard a statement made on the radio about relationships and young people it said: It is the most beautiful worst decision you can make. Because young people don't understand how you can love someone and hate them at the same time. And in order to have that grandparents love, staying together for 40, 50, 60 years; you have to be able to work on it. You have to know that there will be rough patches that last longer than a couple of months.
That's when I thought back to myself...he asked me to change several times and I did immediately but I asked him to change some things and he just did not...it got to the point where we were arguing all of the time, not having sex, and being resentful and stuff to one another. I wonder if we would have heard this statement earlier we would have understood each other soon. I mean, really I thought he would never change, don't ask me if he changed now because guess what he blocked my number...oh damn!
Labels: change, I'm lost, the past
Can I Be Your Sugar Momma
I rarely talk about my friends but as I listen to myself talk to others about my college experience I realize that we did some crazy as shit...And as I woke up this morning...next to the Barber I thought about his female friend and the stupid that happened in college...
I have a friend and we'll call her...Bianca...Well in college Bianca dated a football player we'll call Andre and they dated all of colleged and even after college. But the shit he put her thru was just crazy as hell. Everytime you turned around Andre had these female friends and other women and I mean Bianca was crazy as hell. That's my girl but that bitch [in the fondest terms] is crazy as hell!!!
One night junior year...I had my own place with my roommate the Mexican...that's a total different post...Our place was cool but right before we moved in together I would always be at the Mexican's house. Well Bianca, the Mexican, and I were the best of girlfriends. We talked about everything and it was no secret that Andre was a mess...He wouldn't be blatant with his cheating but the girls he was with were blatant as hell...I mean they would call Bianca's phone and all types of shit...Andre even had this one white girl who paid all of his bills, his rent, his car note you name it! Bianca let that shit just go on cause hey she was benefiting from the shit too...Well, clearly case in point the barber is definitely doing that with chick because she trips me out...she walks in the shop the other day with all these wall fixings and accessories and all he said was I like that but not that take the rest of that shit back to the store...and she hung up what he liked and packed the other shit up and kindly left the shop all the while he and I are laying on the couch watching a movie...
Sorry, I side barred for a moment...Andre was also dating this one chick named Tiffany...When Andre wasn't with Bianca he was with Tiffany....Bianca knew this and Tiffany and her friends didn't give a fuck...they would bump into her at parties, call her all types of name and like I said Bianca was crazy too so half the time she instigated the shit by spilling a drink on them or something...Well she came to the Mexican's house one day to pick us up at 11pm. She lied to us she told us we were going to Cold Stone Ice Creamery [my absolute fav]...we all get in the car and next thing you know we are at Andre's house.. The first thing out of my mouth was like what the fuck are we doing here...Bianca goes, well remember last week when we were in the club and Tiffany bumped into you and I pulled her ponytail and got us kicked out the club cause I was about to start a fight...I said yea...she goes, well she's here now...I'm like so what's up why are we here...Bianca said I'm going in...Before we could even talk her out of it...because mind you she was talking to the Mexican who had a 4.0 every semester and me a student on the Conduct Committee this bitch is out of the car and knocking on the fucking door...Andre opens the door this chick pushes her way in so we go in after her...next thing you know she is up in the bedroom and guess who is undressed in the sheets...Tiffany...Bianca goes gets her underwear or something personal out of the dresser draw...I could of sworn that Tiffany was going to jump up and beat her ass cause she was so tough and damn bad anywhere else we saw...but this bitch pulled the damn covers over her head...Bianca said now what bitch...he's still my man and walked out the damn house...I was so confused...
Point of the story as I was laying in the bed with the barber the other night I heard the front door to the house open...I could of sworn it was going to be the female friend...he was knocked out but I was ready for whatever was going to go down...it wasn't it was just his brother dropping some shit off...But how did I get in my crazy home girl's position where I'm ready to argue over a dude? I asked myself that today...I thought about Bianca and said it's not worth any fight for...but for now...I like his company
Labels: barber, Bianca, college days, the Mexican
17 Days & Counting
17 days and counting to my vacation and I can not wait...I can't wait for numerous reasons. So I left the barber alone and kept it moving...I stopped calling him for the past coouple of days and then all of a sudden he wanted to see me...I went to see him...he was high and drunk...I was sober...we sat in the shop while he ate the food he asked me to pick up...The Gators won 51-21 I should have bet more money on the game...
We went to the house and well we went to sleep...in the middle of the night I swallowed and then went back to sleep...in the morning, I wanted to have sex but only if he was throwing his face in it...he said no, but the past 2 weeks I've swallowed damn near every night without sex because I missed my period so we were afraid to have sex until I had a pregnancy test...it was negative a week ago...my body just skipped the menstraul cycle...
Back to the morning...so because he said no I rolled back over and went to sleep...then he started poking me as if it would wake me up...I was already awake I just chose to ignore him and he kept at it for approximately 1 hour then he rolled me over and started kneeing me in my collar bone...we tussled back and forth for 30 minutes and then he did what I wanted him to do and it was great!!! I missed him...He said I've been distant lately, I'm distant because you've got
this going on so...I'm distant...
I went home afterwards...finally saw American Gangster and went to the club...had a great time and my ex showed up...we talked in the VIP for a while and he gave me $100 saying didn't he miss my birthday and valentines day...I said sure even though I didn't care but my bank account was about to bounce so I took it...
The Haitian was there but he had his out of town chick the girl from Canada there...I never blogged about her but while The Haitian and I were dealing with each other he had a Canadian chick come in from out of town and in front of me kissing and stuff...But in the end of the day...I made my drunken phone call to the barber he didn't answer...I called back a couple of times still no answer and then he turned his phone off!!!! Wow...today I slept all day and texted back and forth with the 20 year old!!! Oh I met a 22 year old last night his phone was dead but aparently he has my number so he can call if he wants...but he smokes cigarettes...
Long story short...17 days till I'm in Sunny Sunny Hot Hot Mexico for 5 days...Thank you Lord for the vacation you are about to provide for me!!!
Labels: a long time coming, barber, sex, the Haitian, vacation
This Shit You Just Can't Make Up
I have the type of life that you just can't make up! No seriously I do!!! This is my life...I'm smart...I'm really smart...I graduated Graduate School with a 3.86 GPA, who does that shit? I don't know? I graduated high school at 17, I learned to read, write, and do math at the age of 4 and I mean like addition not counting numbers!!! I speak a couple of languages, I don't have kids, I live at home only because I'm saving $20k to buy a house, and my credit is pretty damn good; except Vicki Secrets calls sometimes cause they want they money for panties other than that I'm good!!! I take care of myself, I eat right, I keep my hair, nails, and other physical features in tact. I'm well read and I'm aware of both street and book knowledge. And besides all of that I'm cute!!!! I'm really cute, short as all hell but cute!!!
Well, I also have the 14 week curse! That's right I said it, a muthafuckin curse!!! I meet guy, guy tells me I'm all of the above, we date substantially and then the bottom falls out. I find out he has a baby on the way with a girl who has been fucking at least one of his friends and two other people, doesn't know if its his and they did a genetic test but not a paternity test and the chick keeps lying about her due date. I find out that he also has a female friend who he claims is just a friend but has recently kissed and her man is locked up and they spend an awful amount of time together, she drives his car, knows his family, runs personal errands for him, and decorates his house. I find out that there are other woman that he's also dating although I've asked several times if he was dating other women not because I'm being nosey but because I want to gauge how much feelings I should invest myself into it but I get a null and void answer. This is usually what I find at the 14 weeks, then I find myself retreating back to my home and not going out and not really giving my number out because every dude I have met since I broke up with my ex has been this way.
And before you can even say anything, I'm not talking about dudes I meet on the street. I'm talking about College Professors, Cops, Correction Officers, the Occassional Thug, Public Service Employees, Friend of Friend, Airline Worker, Teacher, I mean you name I've dated it...and all of them have the same issues. Are my standards too high? Am I looking for something that just isn't out there? And when I go for the guy that is not attractive to me, the corny looking dude he is so corny I walk all over him. I tell him what to do when to do and he does it and its annoying. I just want to meet my equal... EQUAL is that so hard to ask for? I know stop looking, I'm not these dudes come to me...stop thinking about it...I know I have but damn...I'm so lonely I just want 24 weeks of good dates and not the 14 week curse!!! I'm back to square one again...and yes all of those problems happen to be those of the current 14 weeker....he owns a retail shop!
Labels: 14 week curse, baby momma drama, barber, who is she
