Crossroads
I'm definitely at a crossroads in my life. I'm not sure what I want to do with my career. Here I am about to graduate...Thank God!!...in May but I'm not sure if I want to stay at my current job. Don't get me wrong, I love what I do and I love the money I make. But the thing is really, honestly, I don't want to work in the summers anymore. That's right I want off in the summers, so I've been thinking about going into Education. Don't get me wrong my field is needed in education. So I did the research, I just need to pass Grad School and get the job then I'm in!!! LOL!!!
A Valuable Lesson
I learned a valuable lesson this weekend... So there's this guy that I like and let's just say there's some distance between us. Long story short we left it as what --- doesn't know won't hurt ---! I like it that way. I feel like you're cringing already but it's cool. This is what I call baby steps. Yes it's not great to start out this way but hell I'm good with it.
But this is where I learned my valuable lesson. I was told that he may be involved with someone else as well. But you know these are the things that women think: We think once a guy is involved with two women at one time then we must be the side chick. We also think that everything is going wrong.
But here is what we don't think: Did he spend time with you outside of the house, was your time ever interrupted by anyone else, do you know other important people in his life? Once you can answer all these questions with a yes then you are not the side chick. If you're not his girlfriend, if you're not exclusive then why are you mad? Why can't he have two chicks at once. You could do the same thing you just choose not to!
Long story short, this is the valuable lesson I learned! You're not #2 and you're not #1. You are a partner in the firm!!!!! The partner can't be up to her best potential if she's worried about what the paralegal and secretary are doing!!! Get over yourself!!!! Cut the selfish shit out!!! I love thinking about it this way!!!! I'm smiling you should too!!!!
ooooooo....drunken emailing....the new drunk dialing...
Yep...I did it...I drunk emailed last night. Okay so I don't celebrate V-day but I do celebrate my girl La's Birthday....yes her parents were freaky 26 years and 9 months ago. She said 26 years and 10 months ago last night...we were drunk...I asked her if her family was elephants because I don't know any humans having babies after 10 months...
Anyway, my friend and that's all you're getting on that is away on business and so I checked my emails and he emailed me...I responded drunk as hell telling him how much I missed him. Blogger Family, he's only been gone since 2 days ago. So sad right? Okay, but I'm not going to fix it. I'm going to leave it out there and see what happens. Fuck it, right? If he doesn't know me by now or get to know me then screw it, it wasn't worth it.
Is drunk emailing the new thing? Did I start a trend? Atleast I'm not out there showing my Brittney. Isn't that ashamed, now Brittney will always be associated with not wearing draws and whenever you do see someone without them someone will say I see your Brittney!!! Just for that, when I have kids none of them will be named Brittney!!!
Long story short...I'm still drunk and it's 10:34am the next morning. I'm trying to get myself together to go to work late as hell as usual. Anyway, I'm out got to feed my dog!!!!
Am I Supposed to Pursue You?
This is the message that I wrote to my girl Zette...I'll post her reply soon... But truly what do you think?
Hey Z,
I was thinking tonight about something and I know that you do the BIG Guide so I wanted to pose this thought to you to see what you thought. Either way, I don't think guys in this age know how to pursue women anymore. I think that there is so many woman in ratio to the available men therefore it makes women become the pursuers.
Okay so let me give you some background. I'm interested in about 4 different guys but there is only 1 who is actively pursuing me. He asks me out, spends time with me, and has introduced me to his family. Although I'm not ready to get serious, I feel like I'm being pursued. However the other 3 guys really call after midnight and ask if I'm available. Are you serious dude? Is it really that many available women where you can only deal with ones after midnight. And even more why do you keep calling me asking me out to your house after midnight and I consistently tell you no call me before midnight. So if that is the case why don't you realize that I want more than sex with you and if you haven't had any from me.
I don't know Zette maybe I'm off base here and maybe I'm not I just feel like I am now the one pursuing guys. We exchange numbers but if I want to go out on a date with them then I have to ask because if I don't then all they are going to do is call me after or around midnight. That's bullshit. Men don't know how to pursue anymore, how to woo, nor wine & dine. It's just a theory of mine. The ratio of men to woman has changed and Men have lost their swagger and have forgotten to pursue. Am I wrong?
~C
ps. and don't have a career you love because then you have no time for them and the only reason they call you that late, according to them, is because you were busy earlier in the evening with your career!!!!
