Tuesday, March 14, 2006

IT'S A WRAP!!!!!!!

It's definitely a wrap between me and (side bar - the dude we call Ronnie). Why do
I think it's a wrap? Well, okay I had a girl psychosis moment...where we got into a
small miscommunication and I blew it completely out of proportion then I tried to fix
it (side bar - why do girls' have psychosis moments where we take one thing that
happens and assume [make an ass out of ourselves] that it means something totally
different then next thing you know we're breaking up with a guy that we really like to
prove a point!
) Okay, so now you can guess what happened...I called myself giving
us some space and time to prove a point....he didn't respond to my antics and I took
it as he was just done then I really didn't know what to do...I called him a couple of
times (side bar - okay, so I panicked and I called him more than a couple of
times...more like 5 times BUT NOT IN A ROW just simultaneously!
) ...and he called
me back wondering what the hell had happened to me cause he didn't get any of the
previous messages cause he cell phone died....HAHAHAHA! But then....(side bar -
yeah there's a but then....
) he charged his phone read the messages while I was on
the phone (side bar - which was so humiliating) and then told me that I probably did
mess up and that he needs time to process what he is feeling and he'll get back at
me....SO LONG STORY SHORT...I NEED ALL OF YOU BLOGGER FRIENDS TO ANSWER THIS ONE QUESTION.....DID I FUCK UP?

Friday, March 10, 2006

What You Know About That?

Thanks to ALL of my Blogger Friends who helped me with my dropping out of Grad School sitcheation (side bar- ignorant way to say situation)…anyway, I’ve figured it out…I can do workstudy for my internship….and my job will allow it…I talked to everyone I needed to talk to…there are a few minor details to work out but in all it’s handled! Checheyeah! (side bar- ignorant way to say YEAH!)….

Now on another note….I think I like a guy…I haven’t talked about him on blog at all….we’ve been dating since January and now I think I like…he’s older than me…(as usual) but I really like him…but I’m not sure if this is it…like this is the one? As some of you may know…I have an ex fiancé and well it ended but the way I feel about this dude is different not infatuation, not happiness, not love, but something different…mutual respect and understanding…we truly enjoy each other’s company…. I mean...I don't feel like it's forced...It all just feels so normal like we're suppose to be the way we are like this is natural to feel the way I do about him...more over a friend of mine posed this question to me...what if right now he said will you marry me? and my immediate answer was 'NO, I can't I'm in grad school, my job, my family, my life' then my friend said well what if you said no and then he said it was over then cause he wants marriage and you just want to hang on to him for no reason...my next immediate reaction was 'No why does it have to be over because I don't want to marry him?'....so because of that I think I wasn’t in love with my ex fiancé because I didn't care if we got married or not, I didn't care if it was over or not, but with (we'll call him Ronnie) with Ronnie ... I CARE!... so my question that I pose to you Blogger Friends is this…how do I know if I’m in love?

Friday, March 03, 2006

That's it I'm dropping out of Grad School!!!!!

For those who didn't know...I'm a graduate student...at a pretty prestigious university in the North East....well I just found out that that school is forcing me out of my studies. I have to do an internship unfortunately, I have to work full time every day to afford school. I know your immediate solution...quit work and take out loans...well for undergrad I went to a pretty prestigious university in the South East (GO GATORS!) so my total debt right now is $63k+ .... (side bar- anyone want to help with those payments? If you got the principle I got the interest!) Anyway, so I work in order to go to school not the other way around. Long story short I can't do my internship on weekends or night time hours (according to the school!). So what do I do? I'm open to any and all suggestions... I can do workstudy but if my job doesn't approve of it...it's a wrap for me! And guess you formalized those words exactly for me? The Dean of Placements/Field Instruction....her exact words were..."well if that doesn't work out then you may have to leave school..." HELP ME PLEASE!