Diary of a Confused Black Woman

What You Know About That?

Thanks to ALL of my Blogger Friends who helped me with my dropping out of Grad School sitcheation (side bar- ignorant way to say situation)…anyway, I’ve figured it out…I can do workstudy for my internship….and my job will allow it…I talked to everyone I needed to talk to…there are a few minor details to work out but in all it’s handled! Checheyeah! (side bar- ignorant way to say YEAH!)….

Now on another note….I think I like a guy…I haven’t talked about him on blog at all….we’ve been dating since January and now I think I like…he’s older than me…(as usual) but I really like him…but I’m not sure if this is it…like this is the one? As some of you may know…I have an ex fiancé and well it ended but the way I feel about this dude is different not infatuation, not happiness, not love, but something different…mutual respect and understanding…we truly enjoy each other’s company…. I mean...I don't feel like it's forced...It all just feels so normal like we're suppose to be the way we are like this is natural to feel the way I do about him...more over a friend of mine posed this question to me...what if right now he said will you marry me? and my immediate answer was 'NO, I can't I'm in grad school, my job, my family, my life' then my friend said well what if you said no and then he said it was over then cause he wants marriage and you just want to hang on to him for no reason...my next immediate reaction was 'No why does it have to be over because I don't want to marry him?'....so because of that I think I wasn’t in love with my ex fiancé because I didn't care if we got married or not, I didn't care if it was over or not, but with (we'll call him Ronnie) with Ronnie ... I CARE!... so my question that I pose to you Blogger Friends is this…how do I know if I’m in love?

posted by cherry's kid @ 9:38 AM