Things to Remember
I'm slowly going through a self-realization...and those who really know me have actually recognized it...at first I wasn't ready to admit it but over time I've come to recognize that I'm changing...growing up and understanding who I am...Since 19y/o I was comfortable with my body but now I'm just becoming comfortable with my body and my mind and how they work together! I'm becoming me...with that over the past couple of years since I've turned 21 I've gone by some ground rules in life...I say these life lessons over and over to myself everyday and I decided I should share some with you...maybe they can help you with life as well!
The END justifies the MEANS
Give it your all no matter what!
You can't function without music ... life flows to music you just can't hear it
What are your billable hours! (always have inside jokes)
By ANY MEANS NECESSARY
Don't quit, quitting never completes or comes to an end once you started
Ask what you NEED to know not what you WANT to know
Don't get mad over things you can't control you can only change the things you can control...all that other stuff is just circumstantial for now
I'm too old to settle for things I don't really want
Game faces get you everywhere in life
Stick to the plan and everything will be fine, but remember the plan is always subject to change
My Crazy Easter Weekend
Sunday Night: I slept til 5pm when my coworker woke me up and asked me to go to the movies… we saw Scary Movie 4…don’t go see it! It’s horrible! They needed to stop after they made Scary Movie 3…there were some good parts…I got to listen to her argue with some crazy dude about crazy man thoughts…then I took it to the crib…and at the end of that weekend someone still said I was boring cause I wouldn’t hang out with them on Sunday night before I had to go to work!
Saturday Night: I woke up around 2pm had an argument with crazy man from Baltimore…he really thinks that I’m into his craziness…who wants to be with someone who wants them one week but hates them the next? Not I! Anyway, got my toes done then got kidnapped by
Stupid, who I had to tell for the 2nd time that I thought he was stupid…to be honest
Stupid sounds like he didn’t even graduate from college but to be honest dude graduated from College Magna Cum Lata (did I spell that right?) Anyway, after he fed me and put money in my bank account I went home….Later that night I went to the pool hall with the boys but when we got there…there were these chicks they invited that I wasn’t too interested in hanging out with them so I left…I went home to sleep…I heard the boys had a crazy night cause they took the girls back to the block to the ‘house’ and who knows what went down there…
Friday Night: I woke up around 1pm and went shopping with my homegirl…she tried on everything in the store and brought nothing…doesn’t that make you mad when you shop with someone like that? Ok so my homegirl hosts parties sometimes so we went there and hosted the party with her like we were “it”…then we got drunk had French fries all at the club … this one guy got real drunk and he ended up fighting his own brother in the club then ran out of the place in the middle of the street and started punching moving cars…ok so alcohol might not have done that to him but who knows whatever it was I don’t want none of it! We then went down to the local bar and kept it moving…hung out on the
block with
the boys (yes we were the only girls down on
Frank Street) like you haven’t heard of that before…okay so sometimes I act like New-New from the movie ATL but we all know that you need a New-New in your life…plus secretly parents are rich! (smile) anyway after that we went to the diner and then took it to the crib.
Thursday Night: Ok at like 12 noon my coworker and I decided it was a long weekend therefore we needed to get something to drink after work and ‘
Get Loose’ as
TI would say…so we did…we went to a comedy club in Woodbridge…laughed our butts off and then drank…we danced a little … ok my coworker went to high school outside of this country so she didn’t really dance to the ol’ school jams like the rest of my friends and I did but we still had fun…we were home and drunk on our butts by 3am…
9 or Higher
Ok, so what does 9 or Higher mean...well I thought about it the other day and I haven't dealt with a dude who has been rated at a 9 or higher on a scale of 1 to 10 in a minute but I did the other night (
side bar - the thing is I go for 7.5s and up because I'm not sure if I'm comfortable with a metrosexual guy) anyway...there is this guy who is a 9.5 and my friends all know him...shoot they've known him since middle school and well...we always saw each other but never tried anything. Word around town was that he was loose and I'm pretty sure word around town for me was that I was a tease or something else (
but that's for me to know and you to find out). Anyway, we've been out a couple of times and the stuff was going good we were very honest with each other about the point in time we are in our lives. He stated he has an ex that he just broke up with not too long ago they were together for 2 years but she broke his trust and he doesn't want to be back with her. I told him that I'm chilling and really I have time but don't have time, I like to be spoiled and when guys don't spoil me the way I want them to I walk away. Also I stated sometimes I'm just not that into him after bullshit happens. So after a couple of dates and phone flirting (
dictionary - phone flirting - n - numerous phone calls or text messaging that lasts for hours between two parties). WE ended up doing the do...and boy was the do great...actually it was probably the best do I've had in about a year or so. Anyway, I called him tonight...after my weekly coworker date (
side bar - my coworkers and I go on dates with each other to the movies we actually enjoy each others' company) he shot me a text back which is normal...but what wasn't normal was the response...."
I'm out with my ex now can I hit you back later?"...I said "
sure do what you do call me whenever"...but really I wanted to say "
why the hell are you out with that sneaky chick?" but I don't have the clout to say that...and really how can I say that I mean they do have a history! So now on a Saturday night ... my date is out with his ex and I'm blogging about it!... I know I can't show him my insecurity because that's part of the reason why he says he broke up with her...So here is my problem now what do I do?
